我的内心是如此地挣扎，不想违抗父母的意识当儿也不想当木偶，我已经长大了，放我自由的飞翔吧，这并不代表翅膀硬了，不听话了。忠言总是逆耳，或许我很不成熟，但我的决定也不是很荒唐，请支持我的决定，还我一点自信，过分的关照让我喘不过气，若我不在乎你们，我也不会你的一句话烦到快疯了，为什么问题总是在于我？你影象中的我总是叛逆，是你太爱我了还是恰好相反？兄弟姐妹之中没有公平的平衡，我尝试接受但我真的很烦，很压力，纾解不到，我想我迟早会疯掉，对不起，我越来越不想回家了，宁愿在外被风吹雨打，是我不孝，就让所有的错误就降在我一个人的身上吧！

放心，这绝对不是遗书

以前觉得那车旧到来很丢脸又浪费车油钱

现在却觉得很方便，很幸福

谢谢

今天开始我会学会珍惜

终于体会到幸福就是要知足

反复播着王力宏的需要人陪，夜深了，这首歌听了额外有感觉，现在的我，真的需要人陪

感冒了，还好不是什么大病不过加上女人病真的很累

前几天赶着功课，才第二个星期我就逃课了，讲很不过去，不明白为何我要如此的堕落，人的专注力何时少得如此的严重？让自己处在退化当中，不自救别人也无能为力啊

说到改变，近来发现周围的人都变得很可怕，不得不堤防，或许训练着我将来踏入社会

钱钱钱不够用！妈妈说不节俭，几多都不够用！虽然我觉得有时妈妈很唠叨，但我发现最近我所关心人的方式其实都在用妈妈的方式

I wanted to blogger few days ago but internet sever was down, dont know whats wrong with it, treat us like we never pay the bill zz..

Class started on monday, but mood still holiday-ing..
today i attend our very first tutorial class, assignments are waving with us and i pretend i dint see them :x what is time base media? hmm? is to watch movie!! wee~ so after class we went midvally for movie, at first we plan to watch detective dee but the timing was not right so we anyhow watch reign of assassin and i think this movie worth for our money.. seriously through the poster and actors i dont feel like watching this movie but after i watch today i totally in love with it but i dont think michelle is too old to match jung woo-sung :x about the story, you have to check it out by yourself :P

Guard is peeking me!! i wish is i think too much..

Pj is no longer safe!! my friend's house been burn and the fire almost kill them!! isit something wrong with the bad guy mental? i heard this is not the first house been burn.. police please do something!!

Recently i eat like hungry ghost.. maybe during holiday got too much limited from mummy? i am not only fatter now, i also ends up i shitting blood just now :'(

thank you for everyone showering me with lots of wishes in my facebook, i think along my 22 year gonna be really HAPPY as happy cannot be separate with birthday :P sounds lame zzz lols..

what sad is i mess my dear plan.. hais.. lets skip this.. but really appreciate for the cupcake he make for me.. xoxo



in between i did meet up my friends for lunch and here is the picture for memory.. see the scenery was like at other country, for this four season restaurant, this scenery is their advantage but interior design just so so and what weird is through camera they actually looks great!! this is the power of photography?



leave 1 week of holiday.. oh gosh.. i was like doing nothing at all.. always like this.. have to do whatever i need to in between this week

lastly, happy 10.10.10

was outing today, meet old friend for chit chat and try to find gift for friend's wedding on coming november, what so special in the picture is.. THE FOOD!! lols!! express soup, i wanted to try this quit some time ago, they serve the soup in bread!! well, for me, i dint really like the bread but i do love the mushroom soup <3 i regret for not trying their pumpkin soup, anyone want to go there? lets go!!



at night i and my family went to i-city, as my sister friend from muar is here, although the place quit near to my house, but my dad always refuse to go, cause he said what for watching light bulbs? actually also nothing to see, but if come with friends, i think it will be more fun taking picture all around ^^

坦白说，我这个人很渴望爱，不只是男女之间的关系，请给我所有的爱。。

内疚的是今天我脱口而出，对老豆说了不该说的话，我知道我这句话很不孝，但一路来我终是觉得他偏心。。

故事的发生是从这里开始，我最讨厌鱼粥，虽然它并不难吃，我姐说有人煮给你就好珍惜，这一切我都懂，但这是掩饰你懒惰的借口吗？我吃很少，期待着下午茶却等不到，他说别找了，巴杀没东西买，对，时间的确还早但我却看见我弟在吃着东西，那是什么？生气时往往让人说错话，说了也挽留不回，是好是坏我也衡量不到，因为一阵子后换来吃的了，我在乎的不是什么所谓的食物，是你对我的爱在哪？

气，不是一两天而是长久累积下来的。。

爱不能勉强，我又凭什么要你的爱？

我的爱，会不会因此变得很可怕呢？

此刻的我好想哭，回头一看却觉得很幼稚，矛盾。。

原谅我，在乎，也是因为我爱你。。





允许我的发泄，却不准你评！

有些事，想说，却不能说

深深体会要别人改变， 首先要改变的则是自己

today is my 2nd outing with my boy if i am not mistaken? lols.. at 1st we plan to meet up my friends for a tea at sunway but she fall from bicycle on yesterday during cycling at bukit cahaya.. how careless of her.. and when she told me she got an accident in this morning, i thought she bang on a vehicle because the way she drive really WAOH!! when i meet up my boy, the way he dress really looks smart and this reflect that he cares for the meeting ^^


.. time flies..
.. not details provided haha..


here i back to my home and i am missing him again.. sigh

today onward will be my holiday!! yesh!! this is what i waiting for.. this semester really tough and thanks to my best friend for scolding me not to drop some of the subject haha.. but seems like my gpa will drop as i summit-ed uncompleted assignments.. sigh.. anywhere, please dont fail me

but this holiday seems like i will be busy too, as my mum just operation, so i have to help around, my dad gave me a new task, the task is i have to prepare family dinner, and whats i will get as reply, i think is comments, no, should be commentsSSSSSSSSSS!! even when i sweep floor, i am not been qualify, what i can say is, different people have different way of working la :x

happy lantern day!! yesterday my friends organize bbq at her house, i do wish the time will stop there forever.. i do enjoy the gathering so much although i am damn tired, looking for more gathering on next semester ^^



pardon me for showing blurry image

like such a long time dint talk to myself.. and this will be my 2nd post for today..

i know i am big enough, i should be mature, but i just cant, cause i am not!! i am lacking of family love!! haha? zzz.. i shouldn't talk much here about my unsatisfied but my hormone are really unbalance!! i miss home but i cant stay long.. i am jealous jealous and really JEALOUS :(

I am back!! did anyone miss me? lols.. maybe everyone start to forget for who i am? but never mind.. i am here for myself :)

In between the day i was disappear, i was busy about assignments.. its really sucks!! finally its end, and i am still alive.. nope nope.. we still dont know the result >< hope everything goes fine.. i really worry my digital imaging subject.. instead we have to summit 3 pieces artwork, but i just summit 2 and is on the 2nd day :x the rest of my assignments are in a mess too.. everyone start to show off theirs work on facebook and they really did a good job.. i am shame for my assignments..

There is also a little sweetness gift for me when i have been torture by assignments is from single, i have been update into a pair.. eh eh.. my sentence are weird haha.. anywhere, i dont care how other judge on us, since we decide together, we must work hard together to keep this relationship on.. i know that i am not perfect, but i am trying ^^

最近都用华语来写部落格，因为真的很不擅长用英文来表达

今天，我的胸口一直闷闷的，很不舒服，原因是否在于熬夜？可我近来都没怎么熬啊？我不敢想象明天开始的生活。。今天就给自己最后一天的假期好好休息吧！

突然间我又不想写了，到此为此吧！

朋友对我的改变
我有多久没好好地根自己说话了？ 基本上除了压力，当然还发生总总不愉快的事，选择沉默，因为往往生气而丧失理智，祸从口出。我忍但切记，睡火山也有爆发的一天！但现在的我不是生气，只是防备之心比往往多了好几倍，不得不承认，残酷的世界往往让你不得不改变！

功课对我的改变
前阵子，功课的压力逼得我喘不过气来，碎碎念了好几天，委屈了我身边的人，我想接下来的日子，请你们多多包含，没睡觉真的会逼疯我。。

爱情对我的改变
我人生的故事从没这么严重被爱人掌控，近来的我，喜、怒、爱、乐，通通随着他而改变，我想，我爱疯了！我是否迷失了我自己？

物质对我的改变
说到钱，很悲哀。。跳过！我母亲说我不懂得爱护所拥有的，她是对的，因为东西落在我手上，寿命都很短。。我却不想为物质而活，也许这想法根本扯不上关系。。是借口吗？

我觉得我自己很堕落，从今天起，我得好好地善待自己，增加知识，瘦身？好让我自己有条件去跟人家谈，我要活的更精彩！这份热情能维持多久？

love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? HAIS i love you.. love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not? love me? love me not?

超出友谊，情人未满
这是他想要的，我默默接受

school reopen for 2nd week, i was like running out of time, you can say that i wasted too much time on unnecessary stuff or our uni is trying to make sure all of us who talking this subject to die!! whatever, every friday night will be my little private spare time for myself to express my feeling here before i turns mad.. to me, blogger still have a limitation on expressing our true feeling as we have to take care for everyone's feeling as well.. we cant be too selfish.. well, it is like a feeling bin to me too, this is to make sure that i am able live harmony with those aliens surrounding me.. so, just pardon me :)

well, today i got emo suddenly and i dont know what is the reason, i just emo.. ROAWRRR!! isit influence by assignment have to redo? period? not enough sleep? or the girl? hey girl, sorry for boycotting you with lame reasons.. err, i promise i will change my attitude.. and sorry buibui for beating you.. fail to teach you is my fault..

well, i shall stop writing at here for the reason of i dont want to make all my dear readers tired reading such a long bullshit.. i am kind ya? haha

buibui, my 1st pet

once, i trust love
or maybe he wasnt the right one?

conclusion for 2 week holiday
photograph did drop down every moment ya?

cameron trip with collage friends

it's may
2nd sunday: happy mothers day
12th may: daddy, happy birthday
18th: brother, happy birthday
25th: mummy, happy 50th birthday
lucky we have nothing to do with labors day, wesak day and the rest birthday
omg, fathers day also coming soon

the gardens club?
the toilets are FUIYOH!!
is good to be rich..

this look nice but.. but.. but.. taste ewww..
anywhere, no good to tell you the shop name :x

this taste different from what we always feed to our self ^^
worth to try.. its delicious.. but where? well, the answer is on the tissue paper

hmm.. did i miss out anything? whatever la..
- the end -

this is what i mean ♥ my brain is full of you

what had i do lately? erm wasting time? i dont know this consider resting or suicide?

today i dream i born a baby.. lols.. it is as easy as shitting.. recently i really wish i have a baby.. haha.. but this shouldnt and wont happen so early.. wakey-wakey..

i did dream tsunami too!! its happen at my secondary school.. lols.. nonsense.. i shouldnt let this to bother me anymore.. i want to have a holiday on beach, with bikini if i keep fit success? lols? this is my dream since i was primary 6 :s ahem, wakey-wakey..

i am a girl who have lots of dream but 0 action.. terrible sia..

some people thought i am pro, but when i recall back what i have in my brain, i was like even worst then a kindergarten child.. they call this as not confidence but..

lols reading my blog will be a bit tough cause i was like jumping here and there talking different stuff in the same post, actually my brain even more messy, hopefully i wont insane in the future haha..

miss him like crazy

going to cameron on this coming weekend, text me ok?
i am waiting

thanks for updating me what you do recently :)

today i and my sister plan to watch kidnapper but bukit raja jasco dont have =.= so we decide to watch a nightmare on elm street, and WOW i love this movie haha.. compare the movie with me now, half of my holiday i use to sleep haha.. like i was afraid after school reopen have to burn midnight oil? lols..

the image i learn to edit like getting more and more ugly.. lols.. give up~ maybe photoshop want me to enjoy my holiday? yaye~

here come a new one, this effect is super easy to edit, you can just finish it between 5 minutes =) you might found that among all the picture i edited, i am wearing a raincoat.. well, i am not promoting for it, this is because previously i was helping my friend to take a few shoots for her advertising design assignment so i just recycle those leave over pictures :P

this 2 nights i was watching 净空法师 talk, is time for peoples to change, i really afraid human being nowadays especially those videos my friends shared on facebook, those even dare to video the job they did, isit proud huh? i am really speechless, do believe in karma..

time flies, today i was like doing nothing.. phew~

ohh, i and my sister went for a hair cut..
we choose for the rm25 stylish package..
ok, we wash and blow ours hair, add rm10..
to use a better shampoo and condition, add rm12 again..
they suggest us to try on a product, i forget what is it already, rm45 for a little small bottle only!! i rejected (my sister communication fail with them, so she use it..)

in the end, i did purchase a hair spray for rm28..

erm.. whats going here?! i and my sister thought each of us gonna spend for rm25 only??

but? i wasted rm75?! and she wasted rm92?!

omituofo~

semester break for 2 week, i promise to input myself, well, my picture above is a prove of very first step, train my photoshop skills.. i am noob enough as now i recall back, i almost forget those step.. why should i always put double effort? and i am double lazy compare to the rest? sigh..

klang friends, forgive me for rotting in my house..

yesterday noon back from broga hill.. during the climbing process, out of my 17 friends, i am the only one who need to rest, so embarrassing have to let xiao zhi carry my bag, i thought i was strong but after the trip i was like the weakness among all the girls, sigh~ well, i am well train city girl haha.. and dont plan for crystal hill pleaseeeee~

how could i forget my daddy's birthday on yesterday?

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you.. with lots of love to say, i love you, mummy

thanks for infinity sacrifice for tan's family, may you stay healthy and happy always, i promise i will minimum your worries towards me, lols, happy mother's day

if i got the power to influence him

unless he love me

i rather to be her

at least she own a memory together with him

he has his stand

but he cant stop me from loving him

you can laugh me for my craziness

but the fact will never change

finally i see where is it, and i realize how important is she to him in the past

extremely strong thunder this evening, even i close my room's balcony, my room's curtain, i still can see the lightning, and felt that the thunder was just on top of the roof. i am so scare, lying on my bed, start to think what if malaysia happen natural disaster, right now? i was praying in my heart but i cant concentrate. i have been living in this area for a year, we can felt the 'aftershock' (i dont know whether is word is mean to use like this or what? sorry for direct translate from chinese) every time our neighbor country earthquake. wandering this is good or bad?

oh ya, back to the exam for this morning -english mass communication- i am glad to receive tips from friends otherwise i think i gonna fail in every language subject.. language really kills me!! at least with the tips, it still possible to keep me in safety zone.. lols.. and thanks for the morning call ♥

A said:" text him every time you miss him."
i sent him a message
- no reply -

i asked:" am i annoying?"
B said:" if he mind you, he will come to you."

stop nonsense here, prepare for your exam tomorrow!!

really piss off myself!! i clearly realize that i dont have enough knowledge but my laziness always stop me from achieving my goal.. diu!! sorry for being rude..

to.. either my brain or heart, i am here to WARN, dont you ever dare to waste even 1 second of your precious time in thinking nonsense again and AGAIN!! you think you are still young huh? got lots of time to day dream huh? open your eyes big big and look around!! compare yourself with others and see what you have for yourself!! damn!! always live in illusion!! when only you wanna grow? shouting all the problems out but without action taken? HA- HA- HA- idiot!! ARGHHHHH!! why must i born to be like this? i want to change!! I WANT TO CHANGE!!

the picture above is BIG and SCARY neh? haha.. lets just imagine if one day i am bareheaded? HAHAHAHA..

well, finally i drive back home today.. my mum actually dont allow me to do this but i dont like to depends on people as we have to watch theirs face.. mama, dont worry.. i am 22 this year.. is old enough to be independence.. lols..

dad, please dont eat so fast.. i am so tension, swallowing my food!!

finally, we had settle down all the assignments, lets say YEAH here if you are reading my blog.. lols.. but yea, we lost our study leave.. whatever.. cause i definitely will waste it too..

today someone praised that i am beautiful.. is good to heard that.. thanks.. i know you meant it.. LOLS LOLS LOLS.. thanks once again.. cause you added confidence to me.. hardly peoples say this to me, if they did, seriously i also wont believe.. thats why i am actually do appreciate when you say this to me ♥ you are actually handsome too!! HAHAHAHA!!

you you you.. please dont flirting around ='(

如果，爱情可以收起来，那该有多好，我们就不用再次受到伤害，谢谢你很婉转地拒绝我，你有你的爱情观念，我无法改变你的坚持，我想，是你没爱过我吧，不然，一切都不成问题。

人生本来就是一场戏，我的“哀”，藏在“喜”的面具背后，我想，这会让大家好过些吧？反正我也习惯一个人的生活，改变未必能适应，这，是我给我自己的安慰吗？

爱你

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i am so dizzy right now.. feel like crying.. i cant do well for the magazine cover page design competition and a mountain of assignments are waving hand with me.. honestly, i aspect very high, thats why i choose to take part in this competition but, now.. i am not satisfied with my own work, i cant imagine how others judge on it ='( well, i have to continue touching up my work now.. wish me luck..

bad luck, stay away from me!! today i went to genting for assignment, use around 2 hours to the 3rd bus station only got a little bit 'earlier' bus for us, auntie visit earlier and i was wearing a white pants =.=!! stomach and headache, no seat for the bus, meet a stranger with lots of suspicion, and thanks god that i am still here, posting my blog T.T

feel like asking his help at the moment, but who am i to him? and i was afraid i got disappointing answer once again, so, better keep myself far away from his life T.T

this is not the first time i been treated like this.. when i wish there is someone for me, the answer is always a no.. i always try to fulfill everyone's needs, but ends up? thanks for giving a good excuse to never treat you guys good in the future!! dont you ever try to remind me that i had changed, cause i am clearly know!! piss off!!

my boom?
i do wish is mine but i have to face the reality..

♥ ~see ah song so man also follow our cute pose, so cute sia~ ♥

these few day is thailand songkran festival!! we have a little game among my friends.. after i enter UTAR, i try to organize every event although it is not in our culture because i realize few years later when everyone of us enter to society, we rarely or even dont have this chance, maybe we are busy? try to act mature? or dont have this chance to gather again? i really do appreciate to have you guys around to create a wonderful memory for me, and i hope for you guys too ^^

4am right now.. i dont know why should i wasted my time and rush assignments like hell in the next day? i clearly know what i am doing now, definite going to cause me no money, no future, NOTHING!! hmm.. perhaps some sickness?

my friend is working hard for his new relationship, if he really take it serious, may god bless them ^^

humans need love, so i am..

sounds like talking to myself all the time, but yea, i feel great~

such a long time i did not update my blog and i guess no one will mind it..

what have i done recently? well, nothing special.. i just a normal girl, live like nobody business~

ahem.. forgotten i have to be positive minded..

ohh~ i am so pretty.. so smart.. wuishhh!!

oh ya, these few days i tend to keep fit but ends up now i eat even more and MORE until my stomach going to burst and i felt so satisfied.. whats wrong with me again? sigh~

my urge of hugging you like getting stronger.. but i dont think the day will arrive because in my love history, who i love, their heart never belongs to me.. thats why i always lost confident, cupid, please shoot his butt so he will in love with meeeee~

nowadays getting easier to be emo..
wandering whats wrong with me?
i was thinking..
will one day i insane?
and draw a full stop for my life?
of course, i dont want this to happen on me..
can i just stop emo-ing?
can i have a positive thinking?
can i?

i am not missing you!!
and i just lied

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this is the picture for my packaging design assignment summited on this afternoon.. i thought i got lots of time to prepare it but in the end still rush like hell.. lucky i still able to make it.. one of my friend said this is a lame design.. well, alright, i will accept his comment.. i wandering to see his design in the future.. god bless~ and a little warning, dont anyhow take my things especially when i was in a hurry and i need it as well.. you will never know when is the volcano going to burst!!

tada~ here are some photo to share, so people who reading my blog wont feel bored.. how kind of me HAHA..

as you can see from the picture, we are having our 'lao shang' on 25th february night.. ella, this 'lao shang' you bought not nice la.. so we just happened to played on it and in the end we treat it to mr table..

after finish our 'lao shang', we went to kbox to celebrate friend's birthday.. well, these bananas wasn't his cake.. it is just part of our planing, designed by shin.. actually these bananas already smell because of keeping them too long inside the car.. poor king kong tasted it.. but hope that he do have fun with us..

boy, you got your freedom blessing from everyone especially your parents, so use it wisely ya? happy birthday

here are some pictures related to my daily life as i lazy to write more..









as you can see.. i had highlighted my hair..







went to visit 'dong chan shi' with my sister's friend..






visited new build temple while finish praying my grandparents.. this interior is cool.. floor = table + cupboard..











and a mountain of cloths is waiting for me to fold!! i got to go!! bye!!

did anyone have idea for calling BAK GUA in english? well, as we know, this is not a healthy food, that's why mummy strictly don't allow anyone of us to eat it..

well, recently my dad bought it for us without mummy knowledge.. so we have to hide and eat it secretly.. it is so tiring!!

just now i caught my brother for eating it and i have to stop mummy for entering his room!! *sigh* why must we live in this way?

seriously i miss those day when grandparents are still alive.. without them, no more gathering for relatives.. this is the worst chinese new year i ever had in my life.. some more it's come together with valentine's day.. feel even more lonely..

ROMEO SAVE ME i've been feeling so alone.. i keep waiting for you but you never come..

just a little share about what had happen to me last midnight.. i forget to turn off my car's light and after we finish our midnight movie at 1utama, i bet that you guys clearly know what is going on with my car.. at this time, i clearly scan through everyone especially for the guy..

ahem.. back to the topic.. dont know why this time unable to charge my car battery from my friend's car, so we have to try the other way to start the engine by pushing it.. as you can see from the video.. it is easy for you yea? but things doesn't as easy as what you watch because this is just a part from the process.. i can see they are sweat.. try to work together with their very best.. i really cant imagine what will happen to me without them..

thank you.. i say it from bottom of my heart..

although today is saturday, but we have to attend japanese class replacement so we can have more holiday for this coming chinese new year.. i wandering why sir will never miss out me to speak in every class? isit my expression always in blur condition? yes, i am.. glad that my friends will always there to help me.. aiks, i have to put more effort on it compare to the rest..

in the evening, i went to learn swimming from my friend.. for the first lesson, i think she will be a good trainer.. today is also first time for me to swim under the rain.. lucky the thunder dint stroke on us or else i wont be here to blogger anymore haha..

i am so tired everyday but i have to force myself to stay awake.. 24 hours are not longer enough for me.. for others people opinion, i might spend too much time on unnecessary stuff but i just dont want to live like a robot or a book worm.. seem like have to burn midnight oil again =(

if i dont have a car, will you still like to hang out with me?

BOO!! here i am again!! haaa sorry for my willful for a period ^^ well, few days ago i wanted to blogger but i was too busy and tired with my school stuff.. same as today.. sun gonna raise soon and i still awaking..

please allow me to vent at here.. AHHHHHHHHHH!! i am so stress.. seriously i cant follow my japanese class =( i blame sir for not lecture us nicely but i clearly know that this is my
problem.. what happen to my brain? *sigh* some more, i have to digest a mountain of assignments.. dear utar, please give us some space to breath especially for my course before i and my friends collapse.. haha?

alright, i better rest now as i have to attend my class at 9am later.. good night and good morning~

i think i will stop blogger as i am afraid everyone know me too well

to prevent me from rotting at home, i decide to painted my house's side gate.. although it seems like nothing for you, but it is really a difficult task to me.. especially when i painted behind of it.. i even climb and bend my body to neighbour's house.. i squat under a hot sun.. and i did use mirror to help as well.. so everything will be perfect.. erm.. one unperfect thing is i did not put newspaper under it.. so the paint just drip at everywhere.. isit this can consider as art? while, my dad answered, 'kanasai!' haha..

when i almost finish, my uncle do drop by for awhile.. he is a rude people.. but when he helped me to wipe away the paint on my hands i feel so warm as my dad never do this to me before.. for me.. i am the kind of dont dare to show out my real feeling.. but just hope he can feel how much i do appreciated =)

come to muar must eat otak-otak..

but yer.. how come the camera just focus on ella?

here i am.. i have a 3 days trip to muar and melaka with my friends as all of us are having holiday.. i found that there is a gentleman hidden among all my friends.. as the person is willing to walk far to find back my cell phone when i notice it is gone.. exchange place for us when the lights make our eyes uncomfortable.. dont want us to suffer with him while his car broken down (please dont chase us away next time.. ops.. touch wood.. no more next time) bbq for us.. walk behind us although we are slow.. and bla bla bla.. but i really do appreciate everythings he done although i dint show..

back to my topic.. i cant belive that i just know them for half year cause i really have fun spending time with them although we dint really visit much place.. we sang and acting inside the car.. joke and gossip around.. dancing for a dog and 3 children to watch.. haaa sounds stupid but for me this is really a good memory.. maybe i am nothing to them, but they are everything to me.. and yea.. i am looking forward to the next sem break ^^

FAKE windmiil at melaka

every time i ask for it but ends up my dad will tell me that i am not effort able if i got a crash his car.. while this afternoon, my dad asked me to look after his car because the place is difficult to get a parking.. i prayed hardly.. i am in scare.. seriously i dont have confidence as i really dont know how to drive auto car!! actually i just use to drive 1 car.. and the car dont even have power staring.. sadly, god cant deliver my message.. i need to mention that i really dont know the horn is so sensitive.. so when i drive, i accidentally horn twice.. under my control.. the car was move.. STOP.. move.. STOP.. seriously, my legs are shaking too.. i am just like a girl without a driving license.. and i am alone.. lucky the lorry able to go through but the driver expression seems like really pissed off at me.. aiks.. what a bad day..

another day had pass.. today i polished bodhisattva with my sister.. my sister really is my idol.. she is hercules.. HAAA.. she able to carry those HEAVY bodhisattva and she polished more, clean and faster then me.. but we just manage to polished some of the part until its BLINK cause it is really difficult and the time are not allow us to do so.. haaa alrite i think i should stop here and thanks for reading it ^^

yea here is it.. louder your volume and do enjoy it ^^

wednesday, is our movie time =) yeah.. everyone will got a discount for the ticket they purchase.. that's why my dad was willing to took us for a movie.. i bet that you already know what i watched as i had uploaded the poster here..

glad that my dad spend me for watching this movie otherwise i will be missing it cause the advertisement in television failed persuade me to watch it.. i dont know how to describe but i just like the feel it gave to me.. especially its background music.. later i will TRY to upload my favorite part in this movie cause seriously i still not really use to blogger..

i gave my blogger link to 2 of my friend for now only.. actually i am worry if someday i dint realize and post something harmful so before i share my link to all my friends, i have to practice watching every single of my word to avoid problems to happen.

well, its really difficult for me to start my first blog here due to my language problem.. anywhere hai.. i had move out my first step..

hmm i think i should write about my daily life? like this will be more easy for me.. i guess..

today i feel disappointed when i try to apply a korea government scholarship and i am not qualify for it. . one of the rules is you need to gain at least 3.2 cgpa.. sadly, i just got 3.09 cgpa during my diploma education.. i dont know whether i should still give a try on it or just accept the fact? sigh..

alright, i think i should stop here from making more mistake.. good night..